A Flawed Writer Stands Strong
Growing up watching my mother apply her make up, I was bound to pick up some of her habits, like rubbing Cover Girl concealer on the dark circles under my eyes. We don’t want to leave the house, exposing our imperfections. Always present a flawless image. Yes, mom. Well, a while back drinking some beers with friends my flawless image cracked. One of them asked me to define a word. My response, “I don’t know.” Disbelief stared back at me. “You’re an English major. Shouldn’t you know that?” I wanted to slap him. What am I a dictionary? Apparently, someone found humor in my vulnerability and put this scene on repeat. The judgment crushed me. I wanted to avoid that feeling at all costs. My solution? Give everyone the impression that I was stupid. You can’t fall far when you aren’t that high up, can you? How did that turn out, you ask? My self-esteem meter dropped to zero. I actually started to believe I was stupid. What a mess. I want to be proud of myself. Pr